I don’t deserve love.. I did that to myself, yes can you imagine!
Thinking any deep gesture is not true.. Delusional or I don’t worth..
Created walls too high.. Too high that I felt choked.. And accepted what is not.. That I am not enough.. For such a long time.. Certainly due to less understanding and more judgemental world.. And mostly Because of getting controlled, scrutinised and mistrust.. And definitely Because of low self esteem Due to seeking validation from near, dear, others and above..
I could not believe.. Nor could I trust.. Walls for others and cage for myself..
I get to know too late.. Before anything else.. No matter what.. Don’t be cruel to yourself.. Too late but true always.. To the person whom you are going to spend most of your time.. Its also deserve priority, love, kindness and trust.. Love yourself first..
I am so pleased to announce that my poem, where’s the end, is now available atMasticadoresIndia. Thank you to Terveen Gill, and the team at MasticadoresIndia for their continued support, and for publishing .
While counting blessings… Count freedom twice…. Right to live with pride and dignity.. Is so much taken for granted.. The price of independence.. As well as saving the independence… Is way too high.. Least we can have is gratitude and respect for it… We are blessed to have a right to speak and to be heard.. With social liberty, freedom of choice.. Make independence more meaningful by working on issues.. For that all need to remain united… Coming together against all odds.. To born under free country is fortunate… Making it better with the path of progress.. Understanding, gratitude, protect and work on growth.. To continue to shine brighter with glory, peace and prosperity.. Wish, pray as well as work for it.
I am enduring with my strength… And fighting battles of judgements.. I Know what I feel.. Sometimes positive, some day numb and some day just broke down… When I am subjected to prejudice… But it just increases my inner strength.. Being myself, the world will amend.. Really… Did the world amend? Did it let go spreading hate, judgement? Did it accept if we do not fit in? And don’t follow the social norms.. Will it has no place for discrimination, shaming and bullying… But I have to be me… Hence its me only who has to understand.. To choose between which battle to fight for and what to ignore… World is taking its own time… I will stand, stand by the virtues and values I believe in… With a hope that I do believe… One day… When kindness and actual meaning of freedom meets… The day will have totally and fully just acceptance… For choices with respect.. All the enduring and fighting Will make sense… Will witness from somewhere or will have gratitude… For those who was patiently fight battles alone… Suffered yet wanted to make a better place for all… On that era.. all efforts, patience, endurance and persistence will make sense.. It will meet a deserving end… Of equality, freedom, acceptance and kindness.. The way God made us.. we corrupted it and we together only going to amend…
Thats Earth heaven… Till then don’t lose hope even though some days and circumstances are difficult… You are right, you are strong and each small effort makes a difference… Keep the faith.. For a better, beautiful future Believe in my heart…I do believe… Amen.
Hope and pray.. One wish constantly.. God.. Never ever separate those.. Who love.. Unconditionally. With lots of test and patience.. When anyone gets that.. Kind of love.. No norms, rules or even fate.. Should come in between.. Time as well timings.. To remain perfectly.. By their side.. How much the whole life.. Get impacted.. Of not only theirs.. But also for those they care deeply..
One of the biggest strengths.. Should never turn into.. Anyone weakness.. All either should understand.. Or leave it to them.. One of biggest virtue is to.. Let two souls remain together.. Who are meant to be.. Help them to unite.. Understands they are meant to be.. Understand even its hurting.. In the long run you will realise.. And will able to joint the dots.. That what happened was best.. Best for everyone.. Hope no one regrets that…
And one of the biggest sins To stab real feelings Feelings of true love Ignorance, ego or being plain stupid And trying to separate or just ruin Real, raw and forever love Really How I just don’t have the answer or reason.. Being human we made mistakes and learn.. hope we move with and towards Love..
If you are fortunate enough to have.. Have true love.. Grab it.. fight for it and protect it forever.. That’s your gift.. divine gift. Don’t let it go.. Make them realise every time.. What they meant for you…You understood.. The meaning.. Meaning of true love..
If you can witness, understand or able to help… Two lovebirds that belong to each other.. To remain it together till its best for them.. You understood.. The meaning.. Meaning of true love..
The feeling that has.. The power to bring God to earth.. Just to feel.. Feel the best that she/he has to offer.. True and unconditional.. Love. Blessed are those who can actually love.. Love truly and unconditionally.. Give real meaning to live.. Beyond infinity…beyond words…
Was sad to leave my very first team I worked with.. But looking forward for moving upward.. The first team is always special as.. It gives you the first experience of the new chapter… Mine was more of negative one, but still I learned.. The new team was on the same floor with old one on little distance.. And I was trying to adjust in the new team.. But can see my old team and instantly filled with comfort.. Comfort that a familiar place bring and new place was giving me jitters.. Was observing one day the old team was sharing a laugh.. And said a little louder see my old team is laughing.. One of the friendly new colleague listened.. And suddenly told whole team- “everyone just laugh” Without any reason the whole new team starts bursting out of laughter.. Loud enough to get the attention of all.. And I also started laughing and was surprised with the gesture.. Was overlooking how lovely were the efforts of new colleagues.. For making me at ease.. One of the memories from the lot of lovely movements that the second team gave.. To have a great experience to work with.. Never regret or shy away to take any step forward.. As realise every new team brings new experiences.. But the second team was extra special.. Was apprehensive to join initially, but was teary eyed to leave this team.. Did not thank enough the people and the team at that time.. But have lots of respect and gratitude.. Whenever I look back, I realise and remember One of the best team ever I worked with…
A life like a song on loop that connects deeply without getting bored… Enjoying even small activities while working on dreams.. Childlike curiosity and emotions that understands everyone and each vibe… Laugh from the heart and eyes, love from the soul.. Dance freely, Keep singing your own song… Love what you do..do it with love.. Collecting movements…lost in the right direction.. Always live as life is a blessing, Choosing happiness and bliss will follow.
Firm believer in hope.. Though some battles needs to be fought alone.. Continuous struggles tested by time and life.. All goes through struggles so not to criticise.. Part of life.. Always hopeful for sunshine.. So waiting to pass by.. Living with perseverance.. Fighting the demons of outside as well as inside.. Always a positive narrative keeps running by.. In my thoughts just to let me survive.. But the patience reached its limits… Testing phases just drained the vibe.. The last thin straw losses the grasp.. Drowning in complete darkness.. Extreme silence and no light.. Completely lost the path and meaning… Not able to listen or understand inner voice.. When the dreamer in me… dies…
Overselling and promoting an image.. Protecting with lot of efforts.. Protecting what is fake.. Till how long it will continue.. With so called sleepless nights, no results and overworked inefficient.. Always ready to snatch credits, but never accept mistakes.. Height of double standards and twisting the definition of what responsible is..
Time smile as it changes.. All fall flat on face.. Honesty shines through.. With right path and intentions.. Integrity is a virtue, driven within you.. Its there completely exists in you or.. Else all other explanations are fake… Justifying what’s there not in place.. Only those can buy who themselves can relate, hypocrite!… Else it’s not that difficult to differentiate.. Sooner or later.. Will get the medicine of their own taste.. Being real, truthful and honest is effortless.. Tested a lot, but with no repentance and actual peacefulness.. Always triumphs in any situation or case.